For as long as I can remember I have always had a desire to be older.  Maybe it comes from my tendency to avoid the present, or maybe it is a desire for what I view to be simpler times ahead.  Either way, I often think about what my life might be like 30 to 40 years from now. Turning another year older over the weekend brought me physically closer to this reality, and yet, it hasn’t extinguished the desire.  In some ways celebrating my birthday has only further ignited my desire for simplicity. A desire to be at peace within the gray. If we pay attention to our soul,…